-Lai Kuan- Blog

Deepest Luv 2 u,my beloved Grandpa~~

13 of March 2008~^Rest In Peace^~

My dearest...My beloved..Grandpa...How are u there??We miss u so much ya~~Although you have left us to a very far away from us,but u will always stay deepest inside of our heart.Grandma always cry in front of us when mentioned bout u...She cant accept the fact that u leave us..She needs sometime,Grandpa..However,u must "bless" grandma ya..She going to have a eye operation soon,she cant always has tears..It will not only harm her eye,but also bring troublesome when operation.Everytime i saw Grandma,she looked depressed,sorrowful...I feel speechless that i cant do anything at all..Grandma..hope u feel better after sometime ya.We will always be with u and there for u anytime..Hope u don feel lonely at all...Take good care of yourself..This is the first time my dearest family members leave me.My Grandpa who is so sayang his every cucu..I stil remember he gave every 1 of his cucu a nick name..Hehe..Of course included me...We will always miss and love u,Grandpa..

                      ~~~  R E S T ~~~ I N ~~~ P E A C E~~~

tHe FeeLinG..^^"

I am happy with you when you are down although it doesnt work things out. Hope you are really can let go.But this kind of things hard to say,you stil need sometime. I know whatever i did for you it doesnt work out anymore,so i tink i shud not do anything else anymore. If not you sure avoiding me.lol. Actually i do really know de fact is that we really don hv de fate 2 get 2gather. but i always hope that de miracle will exist,that's why i trusted so deeply. However,i trust deeply i hurt deeply too. I am giving myself so many excuses and oppotunity no matter how you treat me. i have been persuade myself so hard even i get hurt. i am so silly of this. I realized de more excuses i gave to myself, de more hurt i get. Last time you told me that you are force to buy for me,when i heard it,i really feel shocked and sad. I so hope that you are lie to me even it's true. at last you oso tell me de truth.I realized the truth and fact,de feeling is totally torturing for me. I really duno what shud i do?I am like standing in de middle,no ways to go. Where shud i go??Noways to go! I tink i shud go bak to de previous place that where i belongs to. Obviously this seem not de right place for me,why shud i strunggle so long for this?I dunno..I dunno..

Without ^u^..i realized tat i need you,

Without ^u^ ..i realized i am lonely,

Without ^u^..i realized how important you to me,

Without ^u^..i realized how much i care for you..

Unfortunately,this is how i feel without u..But then so how??This is no more important at all. Obviously, i am not your cup of coffee at all..(can be tea or milk?haha..)lol..why??why??why??Why i stil cant understand?Without ur messages after tat day,i seem very lost to myself. I have no strenght to do other things.I seem like waiting for your message,but finaly i get nothing.It's right oso,this is one of de ways ba. In fact, nothing happen between us at last nothing changes oso. initialy we are fren,now oso remain as fren.But how come i got a strange feel??i hope my worrys are extra. lol..I hope i can let go this time if not you will be more avoinding me.hehe..emm..I tink de best ways is to live happily,hope that you will understand and know how i feel??Hope that you will fall in luv with me in de future(think too much)..hehe^^{ this is de best medicine and excuse for myself}..I know i need some time to makes things ritght??How long is de period?I duno..maybe very soon??long??Everything just let it be ba..Hope everthings goes well to you and have a prosperous new year..All the best ya^^

StaY hAppY hAppY hAppY EvERYoNe OF mY fReN..

mUaCkXxXXx...^*^

<^^@^^> HAPPY 2008<^^@^>

愛一個人好難...

對不起!對不起!

我真的不是故意要告訴你的,可是我只是情不止禁,我很報歉.

我後會了!

我終于明白愛一個人真的好難,可是兩人相愛就更難了.

等候?等待?是否奇蹟真的會出現?他會明白嗎?

有時,我希望你真的不是那麼專情,那你就不用那麼傷心了!

我的心太亂,要一些空白.可是我真的拿自己沒有辦法!

愛情?愛情讓人沖昏了頭!枉枉不知所措.

我就是那麼倔強愛著你,無論有多少的反對我也不會放棄你.

不管愛你有多難,我也不會放棄.

我知道你還深愛著你的她,而我也深愛著你.

我知道你一直把我當成你的好朋友,好知己.

你曾告訴過我,我是不會明白你那時候的心情?

我明白這感覺,無論如何,順其自然吧?我不會再逼你了!!

我們還是很好的好朋友,以後的事以後再說吧!我珍惜這份友情!!!

Friendship...

  Having semester break for 2 weeks..During the holiday,it's quite boring at home,go grandma's house, go aunt's house & stay at home?? I went to Genting last saturday with some of my friends- 3 couples actually.. I realized something through them. Obviously it can be describe as when you having your partner besides you, you will definately ignore your friends as well. You don't really care your friend's existing. This is what i can sense when I with them. Maybe they are right. Everyone hopes that their lover is with them.Everyone hopes their relationship can last forever and ever. Izit hard to manage between lover and friends? Izit have to pick 1 between them?? Haha..I don't know. I am just feel curious to know. Friendship more important or lover more important ?!? I am so glad that when I have some problem or unhappy I will look for my friends, although sometimes they can't be always there for me but they will give me advise and willing to listen to me.Hehe..Thanks so much to all my buddies..Lastly, for me friendship is important to me but of course lover is also important to me. To manage well between them?? The most important is your partner understand and appreciate you ba..Let's them know what is your needs and demands. Let's them know how important they are in your heart.Haha.. ^^Friendship forever^^